vanessalynne's Weblog Site • NuTang.com

well well well. i haven't updated for a while. mostly because the idea of blogging has become boring and no one else is doing it to keep it alive. whatever. i need something to blurt out my thoughts to.

anyways, i'm kinda disappointed right now. i turned fifteen a few days ago and i really hoped that everything would change, but age really is just a number. i don't feel any different for some reason. i'm really upset at the fact that he didn't wish me a happy birthday. which is stupid because i really need to get over that guy anyway.

anyway . . . . . . even though they don't know it, i'm mad at them. i'm upset at the fact that it's only me. im upset at the fact that they get to have a great sophmore year, but where am i in the picture? it's as if they've forgotten me already. why is it that i'm the girl that has to be set apart from everyone else? did i do something wrong? yeah, i probably did. but the bottom line is, they don't give a damn anymore. it hurts. not having anybody.

why am i the girl who has to move everywhere? why am i the girl who loses her friends? why?

i'm frustrated at the small things. not even a simple "hello". nothing. whenever i try, it amounts to nothing. the lemorons and the oak harborians don't know me anymore. they think they do. but they don't know the half of it. they've all changed, and that hurts too.

family really is the only people who are there for you.

i've lost my best friends. that's not a surprise. i don't care anymore. neither do they. end of story. the point is, i'm sick of trusting my "friends." they aren't "there for you." all i've been doing is putting too much faith into a lie.

i'm happy putting my faith in Him.

just leave me be.

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yay! i think im done getting the site the way i want it to look. so what if its kinda hot outside? i think winter is the best season ever.

well, just wanted to use NuTang instead of xanga. hopefully people will find out about this ...

i'm going to add pictures and all that cool stuff to the gallery later. hmm. blogging is going to be something i do in my spare time; just little blurbs here and there. and for when i'm extremely bored.

peace out.

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